I've been feeling out of it right now. Maybe I'm in love? But then again, maybe just infatuated. Whatever it is it's making me miserable. Not to say that love or infatuation makes you that way, but i guess its different for each person. Like the saying goes, to each his own.

While that introduction has nothing to do with why i'm making this, i think. I just thought i'd share it for some odd reason. Why may you ask am i making something like this? this is more of a personal afront for me, to vent out, hopefully get this arguement out of my head and actually get somewhere in life now. Also if you might have or will notice some things wont make sense and all that but I guess I'm Tarantino-ing plus Rodriguez-ing it here albeit minus the sharp dialogue and grittiness they happen to pull off.

What Is Infatuation? The Dictionary and all its glory states that it is "temporary love of an adolescent" and in all respect it is true. I dont get why us teens say we "love" someone when most, rather 90% of teens are JUST infatuated. Come to think of it, i can barely think of a high school love that lasted all the way to getting married. Maybe thats just me, I tend to see this only happening in happy romantic comedies (which genre i'm man enough to say i like)

how/what do/is you know if you are infatuated?

1.being caught up in looks & appearance & other superficial aspects of a person

2.doesnt last, plain and simple, sorry to break it to you :/

3.knowing that you want to spend the rest of your NIGHT with someone

4. happens fast

5.only seeing what they can do for you and for your needs, if you catch my tokyo drift. wink wink nudge nudge

6. "Puppy Love"

7. You are hopelessly obsessed with someone, but you are blind to all their faults and bad traits. (I.E. you desire and get attached to the image of what you idolize about them instead of what they really are)

8.Seeing someone in such a way that you THINK that you can't live without that
person in your life.

What is Love? The Dictionary states that love is "a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person." sadly, i disagree with the dictionary. Mostly because i think that love cannot be defined, though i rarely tell someone i love them, its because i think its to special of a word to be thrown around on a whim.
Love is something that should be cherished like, hm, a fragile artifact i guess. Yes, I'm bad at thinking of analogies, my bad >_>

how do you know if your in love?

1.Knowing that you want to spend the rest of your LIFE with someone

2.Builds over time

3.Being able to see a person for who they really are and having strong feelings for them anyway

4. Love is everything, it is about giving and not expecting anything in return

5. Love knows no time, the days, the months, the years will pass because real love is timeless.

6.You know you're in love when you spend every second of the day and night
thinking about that person and longing to be with them when you are apart and
nothing or no one else is more important to you than that person.

7. Love is giving yourself in your entirety, becoming vulnerable to that person, for better or for worse, till death do you guys 'part.

8.You want to live the rest of your life with this person because of this person's character strength and many dimensions of compatibility.


After writing all of this, yes i wrote all this, I can say that I'm in between of these two, and like people say, infatuation leads to love, and sadly, i wish it wasnt so. I'm in, like, i guess with a person that i know may possibly not like me back. It hurts to think like this too, mostly because i've only really liked two people in my whole life but this one takes the cake! I've never felt like this with a person before. But, I guess all good things must come to an end right? I'll still talk to this girl, act like nothings changed. But that fact is, something did change, she changed something in me (total cliche i know i know but hey, thats what i feel).

I know i have family on my myspace but if you read this, please keep it on the down low i really dont want our family to be like OMG whats wrong with him you know? also to my friends, i'm like spilling my guts here so i hope you guys dont write something bad about this and be mature about it, i hope.

and to that girl if you ever read this. i dont know if i'll get enough courage to ever tell you this so i'll do it the dorky and cowardly way i guess.

i just wanted to say that.....

















































 

from the whole entirety of my heart, i do (i never really liked the "from the bottom of my heart" saying) and i know you may never feel the same way but if i kept it from you, i'd feel like i'm hiding something and we wouldnt want that now.
















I'll Love you till the last pedal of these plastic roses die


Hell I'll even love you till you look like this



And now that i've gotten it off my chest i feel like, life has been brought back to me and i'm glad that i got this lifted from my chest. I feel like, a new person, able to see things more in perspective, and for that i'm happy.

And to you, the girl to whom had (or still has) taken my heart, even though you'll never know that I like(d)/love(d) you I'm just glad that you came into my life, because if you never did, I would never have see the beauty of this thing we call life so for that i thank you.

Fluffy is missing, can you find it? Sadly I am not a razzle dazzle clue but maybe I can help so girls put on your lip gloss and kiss this mystery goodbye and guys, lets kick arse. because I have faith that you can solve it! and dont forget, underscore (_) between the bold words. hint hint.